TEEN Mom star Amber Portwood has sobbed as she reflected on her shortcomings as a mother in an emotional new scene.
The MTV star has been open about her efforts to repair her relationship with her daughter Leah.
During the latest episode of Teen Mom: Family Reunion, fans watched as Amber was finally able to come out of her quarantine after recovering from COVID.
After being released and allowed to be around the rest of the cast again, the mom of two decided to sit down with Dr. Cheyenne Bryant for a one-on-one session to discuss some of the drama in her life.
The episode was filmed shortly after Amber learned that she would lose custody of her son James, who moved to the West Coast with his father Andrew Glennon.
The Indiana native got emotional during the session, telling Coach B: “It’s been pretty hard. Very traumatic things have happened, all within the last few years.”
She reflected on a previous season of Family Reunion during which she called herself a bad mom, revealing that she “did believe that I was not a good mom” at that time.
Amber said: “I knew that I was not doing everything that I could with Leah. Now, so much has changed.”
She shared with Coach B that when she first started going over to her ex Gary Shirley’s house to visit with her daughter Leah, who he has custody of, Leah would walk right past her.
Amber admitted that being ignored “hurt,” but she just kept on coming.
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She said she even started bringing James along, hoping to build a relationship between him and his sister.
Eventually, things changed and Leah started giving her mother a chance.
As for why she stayed away for so long, Amber said: “Back in the day I thought staying away was the best thing to do for Leah and it actually just completely backfired a couple years later.”
Along with Coach B, Amber planted seeds meant to symbolize things in her relationship with her kids that she wanted to “nurture” and help grow.
Amber cried as she said: “The first seed that I’m planting is for the love the Leah did not receive from me a long time ago because I thought that she would be better off without me because I thought that I would just hurt her future and I want this to grow so that she will know that I never gave up on her.”
In a confessional, she said: “There is nothing that I will ever be able to do to fix any of that stuff but I just have to keep going.”
The emotional scene comes amid reports that Amber is preparing to walk away from Teen Mom after more than a decade.
A source told The U.S. Sun exclusively that the longtime star is gearing up to announce her exit.
“Amber is officially leaving Teen Mom,” the insider said.
“This was her own decision. She was not fired,” the source claimed, and added that the reality star “will be making an announcement within the next few days.”
A call to MTV was not immediately returned.
The U.S. Sun first reported late last month that Amber had been telling friends that she was saying goodbye to the long-running series.
That insider claimed “Amber has told people she is absolutely out at the show, that she already quit and gave notice to MTV.”
The source added Amber isn’t sure of her exact next move yet, but is considering venturing into real estate and flipping houses.